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I bought and moved into the house of my dreams a couple of weeks ago.   I can’t get over the emotions that I have experienced these past few months.  I have gone through buried memories resurfacing of shock, anger and pain.  I have experienced new pains in this process in addition to the excitement of home ownership.  What a rollercoaster.   I have learned to roll with things.  They say moving is one of the hardest things you can do and yes, I believe it.  I am physically and emotionally exhausted.   On the bright side, my shoulders, back

I have just returned from my Kundalini yoga retreat in Nosara, Costa Rica. I couldn’t imagine a more beautiful place or wonderful people to go through my first kundalini experience with. It was a very uncomfortable experience for me.  Not just because I chose to experience the jungle with its glorious sounds, smells and noises, in a cabin without air conditioning or hot water. I do not profess to be an expertise in kundalini yoga after practicing for a week. Kundalini yoga is about the flow of energy through our energy centers or chakras combining intense breath-work and stimulation of

A year ago, I took a step back and gave myself permission to do nothing.  See my blog about washing my windows ()  I got clear, I unpacked my boxes, I cleaned my closets and settled into my apartment.  I gave myself permission to be.   Fast forward to this year I am taking a minute to reflect on my transformation.  I shifted gears in a big way.  I took notice of what was working for me and what wasn’t.  I started my business, became a consultant, put my network to work and got to work.   When fear crept

I may make you uncomfortable with what I have to say today. Staying positive, in the theme of looking for the silver linings of crappy situations has served me well in getting me through some very painful stuff and I appreciate the encouragement I have received from you all. Things are coming up for me as painful memories of shock, betrayal, hurt and anger stored up in my emotional, mental and physical body. Why are these things coming up now?  I found myself at the height of my anxiety on the precipice of starting my business. I realized I was

I went to NYC last weekend, to visit my son. It was amazing! The energy in that city makes my heart sing. It was my birthday and Mother’s Day so needless to say, I got spoiled. I cashed in, savoring every moment I got to spend with my kid. I had the pleasure of meeting up with a friend who also happens to be an artist, and we made our way to the Cooper Hewitt Smithsonian Design Museum. We found this cool interactive exhibit where we got to create our own design and then it was projected on the wall as

It’s been one year since I started teaching yoga at Y6 studio in Williamsville! Teaching yoga has been life changing and brought me back into alignment with who I am… I played a small part in coaching our first cohort of yoga teacher trainees. It was a joy for me to share my passion for yoga with these eager, hard working students. I’m proud to see them come to completion of their program next week. I am sharing this thank you card that they sent me because it is the sweetest acknowledgment and I feel so appreciated and worthy. They

I have my first contract, a wonderful opportunity to consult for a formulary management company, to put my skills to work and do my magic. I am scared. This may not come as a surprise to you, but I have been struggling with moving forward.  I want to protect myself from being in a vulnerable position to experience more trauma and humiliation.  If I want to move forward, I need to let myself be vulnerable again.  That sounds a lot easier than it is. I have been inching my way forward. I have made good progress with setting up my

The last time I attended my professional organization meeting was 4 years ago.  At the time, I was scared about finding another job after my job was eliminated and how that would look, my degree and not being a PharmD, my network, knowing no one outside my little regional health plan in Western New York.  I had my work cut out for me.  I was in a vulnerable position, trying to network and suffering from imposter syndrome in the worst way!   4 years later, I recently attended the AMCP meeting in San Antonio.  I  have since, completed my Masters

Today, I got some feedback from a yoga student that broke my heart.  I should not have reacted with the intensity that I did.  In the service industry, you are going to get criticism, I know that, but it hurts because I give my heart and soul to teaching my students.   The interesting thing is that it triggered the feelings of defensiveness mingled with confusion from a few years ago when I was told my position of 22 years at IH was being eliminated.   I flashed back to my initial physical reaction, huddled in a conference room…. like

I am reposting my original blog from one year ago, to circle back and notice how far I have come from the beginning of my journey…..   Five years ago, my life took a turn, no, I was shoved off a cliff…. metaphorically speaking, by the universe.   On December 7, 2017, I got a call at 5am from my dad, telling me my brother had died of a heart attack overnight.  He had just turned 50 and this came as a shock.   A few months later, my marriage of 25 years fell apart, I lost my home and